So the past couple of months I haven’t been very active and today I wanted to take some time out to talk about what’s been going on with me and where I’ve been. I know this isn’t like my normal content but I think it’s important to build yourself a safe place to vent and my blog is my safe space! There will be some mention of books so don’t worry about that!
So first I want to mention the namesake of my blog, some of you might not know but Blind Dog Books is named after my very own Jack Russel. His real name is Mylo and he suffers from Cataracts and Glaucoma and sadly we’ve noticed a change in Mylo over the past couple of weeks. The daily eye drops have stopped working and so as a result Mylo’s getting a lot worse and the vets’ concern is that he’s in pain. I’ve always said I’ll do anything I can for my dog but when they start feeling pain that’s the point we need to start making difficult choices as a family. Right now he’s on painkillers and he seems to be happy but we understand we need to just be making him as comfortable as we can. I’ve been in a really funky mood the past couple of months and I know this is the reason for it, it’s just a lot and it’s taking a lot to process it.
I’m still not working so I’m stuck in the house a lot more, that’s really affecting me too, obviously. Though in brighter news I do start a new job on Monday! It’s still in retail and it’s still not my dream job but it’s a lot more hours then what I’m working now and the money’s a lot better so it’s a step up. I just need a little boost in the right direction and I really think this is it.
And in other work news I’m busy doing a business plan! I’m working toward opening my own bookshop in my hometown and while people seem to be reacting really well I’m really struggling to build my business plan itself, it’s a lot harder than I thought it would be! I just know why this is a good idea and I know I can do it but trying to explain that to a bank or someone official is hard. I have experience in retail but not on a management level so that makes it a lot harder! I know I can make this work though!
So because of everything I’ve been in a huge reading slump. I was reading The Octunnumi Fosbit Files Prologue by Trevor Alan Foris but I just wasn’t getting through it so I DNFed it with the intention of going back and finishing it off at a later date. Right now I’m reading A Study In Scarlet by Arthur Conan Doyle, it’s a really quick read so I’m really hoping it’ll help get me back into the swing of things pretty quickly. I’m also half listening to it on Audiobook and half reading it so that’s really helping.
Another main reason for my lack of reading is because I’ve been playing a lot of video games. I just finished playing Last Of Us, if you’re a gamer I 100% recommend getting it, It’s such an amazing game and I had an amazing time with it! Right now I’m playing Spyro Reignited, it’s such a fun game and it brings back a lot of childhood memories! I’m also watching, like most of the world, Falcon and the Winter Soldier. I love Marvel a lot and so to have more content to watch from them is really exciting!
Also I went viral on TikTok, that was pretty crazy!
All in all life is kicking my butt pretty hard right now but it’s ok, I know things are going to get better. I just need to keep working at it. Thank you for all your support and patients, I know things are super hard right now and just in case you need to hear it I am proud of you, you are valid, you are loved.
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